Things about Finley

Things  about Finley I don't want to forget:

He's really been into saying "Look at me!" with a really histerical grin on his face.  He is so stinkin cute.   He says this all the time...at least 20 times a day when he thinks he is doing something just downright amazing.

The way he copies Fisher all the time.  He looks up to his big brother so much.

His dimples

His squishy thighs and dimply elbows. 

His blond curly hair is all over the place.

The way he hugs so tight and squeezes with a little grunt.
Also when he hugs he'll do a comforting tap tap tap like mothers and fathers do to sooth babies.

He loves to snuggle with mom and dad...I've even caught him with Fisher

He runs in these crazy circles around the house when, for some reason, he gets the urge to go go go.  Often times he'll run around those circles saying "weeeee!"  and it reminds me of the pig commercial for some insurance company or something.

He's just so cute...it takes all i have to discipline him because he is just so cute.  It's also hard not to laugh or smile when he's done something wrong...but soooo cute!  Sigh, I love that boy.

Things Fisher Says

There are some things I don't ever want to forget about Fisher. 
The way he says:
1)those are HERS shoes, or those are YOURS shoes
2)"hers be coming round the mountain when hers comes"
3)mickedonald's farm
4)my-reka instead of eureka and my-cata instead of Arcata (our-cata).

The way his eyes look when he smiles his big genuin smile.
The way he dances and thinks it is so cool.
The way he always asks about God and Jesus: "God can hear me all the time?  Why?"  "Why was peoples mean to Jesus?"  "Look there's a cross that God died on!"  (he says about telephone poles)God made me? etc...

On Christmas he gave me a huge hug and without prompting said, "Merry Christmas Mom!" 

I love that boy!

A little lesson

My mom noticed a lump on my throat last time she was visiting.  I knew it was there but just pushed it to the back of my mind.  I had other things to think about like taking care of my kids and attempting a garden and what to make for dinner...oh what to make for dinner.  So I made it to the doctor just before my mom left to go back to Washington.  Blood tests and an ultrasound basically just told me that I have nodules growing on my thyroid.  2 on one side and 1 on the other.  I had to wait a week just to find that out.  I went in to do more blood work.  It's 6 days later and I found out I actually do not have an overactive thyroid which is what was thought previously given my skinny-ness and heart palpitations.  So, now I have to wait for my doctor to call me back and schedule a biopsy.  I'm getting more and more scared.  I think the waiting is what makes it so hard.  They say it's nothing to worry about and in my mind I know that it's pointless to worry about something that could easily be nothing.  But trying to get that to sink into my heart is hard.  I keep having to take my thoughts captive and focus on what I know is true and nothing more.  I read a scripture out of psalm 27.  "and this I am still confident of.  I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait on the Lord. Be strong and take heart and wait on the Lord."  This was fitting for me because of all this WAITING I am having to do.  I have my moments of complete victory where I'm solid and am not fearful.  Then I have moments where I'm terrified of what might be wrong with me and I cry of course.  The past couple of weeks have just been terrible.  I've been in rotten moods and have gotten pretty short with the kids.  My head is in the clouds and I can't seem to focus on easy tasks like doing the dishes or even just making dinner.  It seems to take me forever because I forget what I'm doing...all because my mind is preoccupied with this stupid unknown problem.  I've also been extremely exhausted.  Physically and mentally.  Probably from worry and not really because of what is wrong with me.  Any time my throat hurts or my jaw or my ears, I'm thinking "is this because of whatever's wrong with me?"  So I'm having a hard time identifying true symptoms versus psuedo ones that I'm coming up with just because I know something is wrong.  One of the things I'm worried about is if this will keep me from singing.  I noticed after singing for an event my throat was a little achy.  When I say my throat I'm not talking about a sore throat like you would get with a cold.  Maybe it's the glands or something.  But instantly I wonder if it's because of whatever is wrong.  I'm just praying for God to give me faith that I don't naturally have.  Faith that no matter what happens, I'm in good hands and so is my family.  Faith that gives me hope and comfort.  I had been praying before all this happened. I was asking God to show me how I could bring Him the most glory I possibly could while I'm here on earth.  I just really long to bring him glory and honor due to him in everything I do.  And this is still my prayer.  Lord, through all of this bring yourself glory.  I know all things are in your hands and you know whatever is wrong with this body of mine.  What ever is in your will for me I say okay.  Lets do this and let's glorify your name.  Meanwhile, give me the faith that I need and help me to stay hopeful and cheerful and patient for my kids and my husband. 

A few songs I wrote

I started to write songs and I am loving it so much. They usually come from something God is teaching me, or from a scripture that stuck in my brain. I hope to keep writing and writing and singing and singing. Here's a few videos that Chuck and I recorded with the help of our friend. We hope to do some "real" recording soon with the whole band. But we were just too excited to wait.

Dance For You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncaYjjmPEsE&context=C3bfd532ADOEgsToPDskIa4GrUqVi0gkPC8kJX5KMt

The Lovc You Give
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=scTYS8vG4KA&context=C31be6f4ADOEgsToPDskKBhF8K43CI7al7gVROLESo

As One
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQXpMhOiyW0&feature=context&context=C31be6f4ADOEgsToPDskKBhF8K43CI7al7gVROLESo

All the gifts

Now i get to share all the projects I had been working on for Christmas gifts. In the rush to get all these gifts out in time forgot to take pictures of a couple. I made a cute car caddy for my nephew and crocheted an orange scarf for my friend Rachel. I'll have to get pics later. Or just make more.

My mother in-law taught me how to make these little yo-yo flowers so I would have something to do on our long car ride home when we had visited them. I put one on a head band with a button for my niece.

I recently rediscovered crocheting and put it to use making a coffee cup cozy for my friend Jen.

A yarn wreath with felt flowers for my sister in-law

Another one for my other sister in-law

A tissue paper wreath for my new niece, Summer.

My nieces on Adam's side got some cute little aprons since I had found out one of them was getting a kitchen set for Christmas.

And of course hand prints for the Grandparents.